Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Here I Go Again On My Own #thatawkwardmoment

Yup kiddos. School started yesterday. I don't know if I'm happy about that. It's kind of a mix feeling actually. I'm finally back in the field, getting to work and leading a more normal life, instead of watching sitcoms in my room everyday. To be honest it's not that bad, but it kind of suck the life out of you until you're a vegetable. (Don't worry. It's not as bad as it sounds. Seriously.)

Been having lectures for the past 2 days. I don't dread the sem that much anymore, as most of the lectures are pretty bearable. That would mean that the Monday and Tuesday of every week wouldn't suck that much. Tutorials for another 2 more days and it's the 1st weekend.

Note: If you didn't know, the first weekend of any school term is always the most sacred. It's always the last weekend where you can actually feel holiday-ee.

Enjoy yourself as much as you can, because the coming weeks would be well, hell.

In life, we always have those awkward moments, situations that you rather not be in it. There are those where a girl walks in on you while you're shitting, or you tell a joke and nobody laughs except for yourself, or you laughed so hard while telling a joke that nobody knew what you were talking about.

Yes, that's right. I'm talking about #thatawkwardmoment.

Not many of these scenarios actually happen all that often. Except for one. I'm pretty sure that this particular kind of moments happened to everyone before.

Imagine, you're out with some of your friends. You are walking to this nice cafe in just a t-shirt and some jeans. You're not exactly looking the best, but who cares, you're out with your close buddies. No one really minds. It's not like you're on a date.

Suddenly, this handsome man appears in the distance. Oh there he goes, looking pretty good. Wow. The closer he comes, the more you find him familiar. Suddenly, something in your mind snaps. 'THAT'S JOHNNY FROM YOUR PRIMARY SCHOOL CLASS!'

All of a sudden, you panic. You don't know how good or bad you look. (Not that you're gay, but looking so sloppy after so many years. It just doesn't flow at all.) Your old friend Johnny looks really good himself. Then a couple of questions pops into your mind.

"Does he recognise me?" "Should I say hi?" "What if he doesn't recognise me and I'll look like an idiot." "Did he see me?" "Should I just pretend I didn't?"

And all the while you avoid eye contact with him. By the time you really make up your mind, he's walked past you, and you can only pray he did not see you, so that at the next class gathering, there wouldn't be that awkward question of "Hey I saw you the other day. I waved to you but you didn't wave back!" You're gonna lie through your teeth and say, "Oh sorry must have missed you", when you clearly didn't (Liar liar pants on fire)

Let's tweak this scenario a little. Well tweak it a lot. You are in the school canteen and you see your (use-to-be-really-close-but-now-you're-just-acquaintances) friend. At that very moment, you know the two of you made eye contact. In your own mind, you're not sure if your relationship actually permits you to say hi anymore, and you choose to simply look away, not even bothering to acknowledge his or her existence.

#thatawkwardmoment when you're not sure if you should say hi to someone you know.

Life is sad.

Posted by trey at 9:10 PM